Update + kcon?!

   Hey guys, I feel like I always apologize for being so slow at updating that I should just give up saying sorry OTL". Anyways, August is a big month for me and I've been so busy that I haven't had time to update. I'm starting college next week and i'm extremely nervous. I haven't had help during the whole process, so i'm just anxious about everything. No matter how much I tried to ask questions or for help I get brushed off ahhhh. I know this point in your education you're no longer "babied", but no one has really prepared me well enough for this. With that said when I learn more about college and expand my experience with it I hopefully can help those who felt the same way I felt later on.

Also with school starting all my friends are leaving for school. I'm an only child (sadly not like the ones you here that are spoiled rotten OTL completely the opposite) and i'm quite restricted with everything so I will be staying here and since I won't get much aid I will be going to  a CC which I find not bad at all. People always think about going to the big colleges and that's how you'll make it in life, but honestly that's complete bullshit. Yes, going to a "popular"/"big" college will help you with networking etc., but I find that if you have the drive, passion, and goals in mind you'll do just fine. Ugh, sorry I was off topic right? Back to what I was saying about my friends...since my friends are all moving out to dorm i've been spending some time with them, not a lot but a good amount that it's been taking my blogging time away. I'm really sad that they're moving, but in all honesty...as harsh as this sounds..this will really test our friendship. School+distance will be in the way, but it's not hard to send someone a short message here and there when you're at lunch or having dinner. This will honestly be the test of our friendship and I've gone through a lot in my "younger" school days that i'm no longer going to be the girl waiting all the time and pulling the weight in friendships. I know a few of them will keep in contact (hopefully) so that makes me a bit happy. If you guys ever have friend troubles or just troubles at all don't be afraid to contact me here or if it's a bit more personal you can DM me on twitter @nojamsjimin if you ever need someone to talk to and need advice. I've gone through A LOT of crazy things..I may not be the best out there to come for advice, but I can share some of my experiences with you ^_____^. I'm always someone who sees both sides even if it's my own fight, so hopefully I can help you guys if you ever need it!!!!

I'm sorry this post is a bit long, just trying to touch on a few topics I feel strongly about?? I'll quit my rambling and go on with a big event that happened in this month...and if you haven't guessed what it is..well please read my title carefully next time HAHA it's kcon!!! Kcon was truly a blessing and I was so glad I was able to afford it cause I usually pay for everything myself (other than for the house+phone bill+home meals) and I was afraid I couldn't afford it this year, but I did and i'm honestly feeling just so blessed (wow can this sentence be anymore repetitive?). I got p2 standing seats for both days and let me tell you.........standing close to the stage+fangirls/boys = hell.....just kidding it wasn't THAT bad. I think it's an experience everyone should have once in their life, because the feeling of truly being on your feet, cheering, and being close to the stage is just an amazing feeling. Kcon once again was unorganized, especially the second day, because they tried to line up p2 standing people in order of the number on your band and it was just a damn mess, because there were over 2k people JUST for p2 and they made us get in line by number in the hot sun for a few hours and it was just horrid. I got completely sunburned after those two days, but in all honesty it was fun because I was able to enjoy it with two friends i've gotten to known better, I got to see my favorites live and up close, and the merch+food were an amazing bonus too. I'm deciding if I want to write a "review"/post about kcon like more in depth, but that might be boring for everyone so I won't even bother.

This post was extremely long and horribly written so I apologize once again if I bored you or made you cringe. Please enjoy these pictures I took when I was at kcon! My phone quality was bad and it was hard to focus, because everyone was moving but I hope you enjoy these pictures (taken from my ig and tumblr) anyways xx.

 I swear it wasnt empty..we just got in really early HAHA

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Also http://instagram.com/p/rkqjIMotxp/?modal=true check out this short clip of my video I filmed of snsd's performance!!! If the link isn't working go on my ig (my username is elysepham) to see it! I'll leave you with that, thanks for reading!